{"id":11466,"date":"2013-10-07T19:43:47","date_gmt":"2013-10-07T17:43:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.invarena.cz\/?p=11466"},"modified":"2014-10-20T20:06:19","modified_gmt":"2014-10-20T18:06:19","slug":"zna-stiny-za-zrcadlem-a-dobre-vi-co-to-je-ztracet-sebe-sama","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.invarena.cz\/?p=11466","title":{"rendered":"Zn\u00e1 st\u00edny za zrcadlem a dob\u0159e v\u00ed, co to je ztr\u00e1cet sebe sama"},"content":{"rendered":"

Mark\u00e9ta Bedn\u00e1\u0159ov\u00e1 zn\u00e1 \u00fatrapy p\u0159i du\u0161evn\u00ed nemoci, mockr\u00e1t si s\u00e1hla na sam\u00e9 dno. Te\u010f o tom vyd\u00e1v\u00e1 kn\u00ed\u017eku. M\u016f\u017ee \u0159ad\u011b lid\u00ed, kte\u0159\u00ed si to st\u00e1le necht\u011bj\u00ed p\u0159iznat, pomoci poprat se se sv\u00fdm probl\u00e9mem.<\/strong>
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\nJe j\u00ed \u010dty\u0159icet, z toho jednadvacet let bojuje s psych\u00f3zou. Jmenuje se Mark\u00e9ta Bedn\u00e1\u0159ov\u00e1 a \u017eije v N\u00e1m\u011b\u0161ti nad Oslavou.<\/p>\n

Deset let se pokou\u0161ela \u017e\u00edt navzdory chorob\u011b. Chodila do zam\u011bstn\u00e1n\u00ed, piln\u011b si tam budovala dobrou pozici a pravideln\u011b se zas a znovu hroutila. Teprve po deseti letech za\u010dala br\u00e1t v\u011bci za ten spr\u00e1vn\u00fd konec. Postupn\u011b p\u0159ijala naplno fakt, \u017ee je nemocn\u00e1. \u017de \u017eivot p\u016fjde jinudy, ne\u017e si kdysi pl\u00e1novala. A sm\u00ed\u0159ila se i s t\u00edm, \u017ee pracovat u\u017e nem\u016f\u017ee.<\/p>\n

V Bolzanu m\u00e1lem zem\u0159ela<\/strong><\/p>\n

Dnes je srovnan\u00e1 se situac\u00ed, o nemoci mluv\u00ed otev\u0159en\u011b, beze studu, dok\u00e1\u017ee odpov\u00eddat na jakoukoli ot\u00e1zku. U\u017e je sama sebou, by\u0165 cesta k tomuto stavu sebepozn\u00e1n\u00ed byla trnit\u00e1 a bolav\u00e1.<\/p>\n

„Najednou jsem m\u011bla v ur\u010ditou chv\u00edli pot\u0159ebu se z toho vypsat. D\u00e1t z\u00e1\u017eitky a zku\u0161enosti na pap\u00edr. Byl to vlastn\u011b zp\u016fsob terapie. S pomoc\u00ed pan\u00ed Libu\u0161e Hork\u00e9 vznikla kn\u00ed\u017eka. M\u00e9 psan\u00ed m\u011blo smysl, pokud jen jednomu \u010dlov\u011bkovi, kter\u00fd o sob\u011b cosi tu\u0161\u00ed, ale p\u0159iznat si to nechce, pom\u016f\u017ee otev\u0159\u00edt o\u010di. A uv\u011bdomit si, \u017ee s\u00e1m p\u0159ed sebou neute\u010de,“ \u0159ekla autorka p\u0159i k\u0159tu knihy Ve st\u00ednech za zrcadlem.<\/p>\n

Uskute\u010dnil se v jihlavsk\u00e9 psychiatrick\u00e9 l\u00e9\u010debn\u011b. V Mark\u00e9tin\u011b drsn\u011b syrov\u00e9, autentick\u00e9 v\u00fdpov\u011bdi vyplouv\u00e1 na povrch i to, \u017ee \u010desk\u00e1 psychiatrie je podfinancovan\u00e1.
\nMark\u00e9ta Bedn\u00e1\u0159ov\u00e1 se v ran\u00e9 dosp\u011blosti tou\u017eila nau\u010dit dob\u0159e n\u011bmecky a pak na z\u00e1klad\u011b toho z\u00edskat pr\u00e1ci. N\u011bm\u010dinu odjela kr\u00e1tce po revoluci pilovat do severoitalsk\u00e9ho Bolzana.<\/p>\n

Po roce pobytu p\u0159i\u0161el zlom, prvn\u00ed atak du\u0161evn\u00ed choroby. Tak siln\u00fd, \u017ee Mark\u00e9ta t\u00e9m\u011b\u0159 zem\u0159ela.<\/p>\n

Otec s bratrem se pro ni tehdy okam\u017eit\u011b vydali. To, co po osmihodinov\u00e9 j\u00edzd\u011b autem do podh\u016f\u0159\u00ed Alp spat\u0159ili, je donutilo bez odpo\u010dinku zam\u00ed\u0159it zp\u011bt do \u010ceska.<\/p>\n

„Otce \u0161okovalo, co vid\u011bl. Jeho zdrav\u00e1 dcera, kter\u00e1 nikdy netrp\u011bla \u017e\u00e1dnou v\u00e1\u017enou nemoc\u00ed, \u0159vala nesmysln\u00e9 v\u011bci. Obli\u010dej m\u011bla smrteln\u011b b\u00edl\u00fd s ohromn\u00fdmi kruhy pod o\u010dima a mrtvoln\u00fdm v\u00fdrazem,“ vypr\u00e1v\u00ed v kn\u00ed\u017ece Mark\u00e9ta.<\/p>\n

Do l\u00e9\u010debny ve sv\u011brac\u00ed kazajce<\/strong><\/p>\n

„Nebylo m\u011b mo\u017en\u00e9 ani na okam\u017eik uklidnit nebo zti\u0161it, p\u0159esto\u017ee rodina pan\u00ed Elisabethy u\u017e zavolala l\u00e9ka\u0159e, kter\u00fd mn\u011b p\u00edchnul injekci s n\u011b\u010d\u00edm na zklidn\u011bn\u00ed. Z\u00e1rove\u0148 upozornil na mo\u017enost, \u017ee moje pot\u00ed\u017ee by mohly b\u00fdt projevem paranoidn\u00ed schizofrenie,“ stoj\u00ed d\u00e1l v kn\u00ed\u017ece.<\/p>\n

Otec s bratrem Mark\u00e9tu dovezli do \u010ceska do nemocnice v okresn\u00edm m\u011bst\u011b. Odtud ji sanitka transportovala ve sv\u011brac\u00ed kazajce do psychiatrick\u00e9 l\u00e9\u010debny.<\/p>\n

N\u00e1sledovala prvn\u00ed hospitalizace, prvn\u00ed n\u00e1vrat dom\u016f a prvn\u00ed setk\u00e1n\u00ed s t\u00edm, \u017ee okol\u00ed na du\u0161evn\u011b nemocn\u00e9 pohl\u00ed\u017e\u00ed jako na ty, co maj\u00ed cejch. Jedna z nejbolav\u011bj\u0161\u00edch zku\u0161enost\u00ed. Taky prvn\u00ed obdob\u00ed smi\u0159ov\u00e1n\u00ed se s t\u00edm, \u017ee bude muset br\u00e1t po zbytek \u017eivota l\u00e9ky. Ani tato f\u00e1ze nebyla jednoduch\u00e1, Mark\u00e9ta je zpo\u010d\u00e1tku odm\u00edtala. Ne\u017e se dostavil dal\u0161\u00ed siln\u00fd atak. A dal\u0161\u00ed se\u0161up dol\u016f. P\u0159es to v\u0161echno se nevr\u00e1tila dom\u016f k rodi\u010d\u016fm na Vyso\u010dinu, ale d\u00edky sv\u00e9 dokonal\u00e9 n\u011bm\u010din\u011b sehnala pr\u00e1ci v administrativ\u011b ve velk\u00e9 automobilce u Prahy. Po \u010dase se zhroutila a po del\u0161\u00ed nemocensk\u00e9 j\u00ed u\u017e dali najevo, \u017ee s n\u00ed p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 nepo\u010d\u00edtaj\u00ed. Zkusila pracovat pro stroj\u00edrensk\u00fd koncern v Praze. Konec ve firm\u011b byl podobn\u00fd.<\/p>\n

Jen v Boschi byli f\u00e9r<\/strong><\/p>\n

„Pak jsem nastoupila do kancel\u00e1\u0159e v jihlavsk\u00e9m Boschi. Ti jedin\u00ed m\u011b podr\u017eeli. \u0158ekli: a\u017e ti bude l\u00edp, vra\u0165 se, m\u00edsto tu m\u00e1\u0161,“ vzpom\u00edn\u00e1 na dobu p\u0159ed deseti lety autorka.<\/p>\n

„Do\u0161lo mi, \u017ee p\u0159ed sebou neute\u010du. Pod\u00edvala jsem se pravd\u011b do o\u010d\u00ed a zpomalila, v\u00edc se soust\u0159edila na p\u0159\u00ed\u010diny, na minulost. Dnes m\u00e1m pln\u00fd invalidn\u00ed d\u016fchod. Za to, \u017ee se mi relativn\u011b da\u0159\u00ed b\u00fdt v rovnov\u00e1ze, vd\u011b\u010d\u00edm sv\u00e9 nejbli\u017e\u0161\u00ed rodin\u011b, sest\u0159e, man\u017eelovi, l\u00e9ka\u0159\u016fm,“ \u0159\u00edk\u00e1.<\/p>\n

Libu\u0161i Horkou oslovila vlastn\u011b n\u00e1hodou, zda by j\u00ed nepomohla s fin\u00e1ln\u00ed podobou kn\u00ed\u017eky. „P\u0159ed prac\u00ed na knize jsem si myslela, \u017ee jsem otev\u0159en\u00e1 a bez p\u0159edsudk\u016f. V pr\u016fb\u011bhu p\u0159episov\u00e1n\u00ed a upravov\u00e1n\u00ed Mark\u00e9tin\u00fdch text\u016f jsem si musela p\u0159iznat, \u017ee jsem se v sob\u011b v tomhle ohledu po\u0159\u00e1dn\u011b m\u00fdlila a \u017ee m\u00e1m o \u010dem p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161let,“ p\u0159izn\u00e1v\u00e1 dnes Hork\u00e1.<\/p>\n

Hana Jakubcov\u00e1
\nMlad\u00e1 fronta DNES<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Mark\u00e9ta Bedn\u00e1\u0159ov\u00e1 zn\u00e1 \u00fatrapy p\u0159i du\u0161evn\u00ed nemoci, mockr\u00e1t si s\u00e1hla na sam\u00e9 dno. Te\u010f o tom vyd\u00e1v\u00e1 kn\u00ed\u017eku. M\u016f\u017ee \u0159ad\u011b lid\u00ed, kte\u0159\u00ed si to st\u00e1le […]<\/a><\/p>\n<\/div>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1419,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[17,11],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-11466","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-kultura","category-zdravi"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.invarena.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11466","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.invarena.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.invarena.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.invarena.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.invarena.cz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=11466"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.invarena.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11466\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.invarena.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/1419"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.invarena.cz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=11466"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.invarena.cz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=11466"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.invarena.cz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=11466"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}